I have just gotten back from the hospital where the Dr told me after an ultrasound and scan that she she can't see my ovaries because of my weight and that I shouldn't worry about no periods until I've sorted my weight and considered a gastric band as its very dangerous.
Now, I have no problem with her honesty. I have been in denial. Maybe this will be the push I need to tackle it.
What's really upset me is for the past two years i have suffered with anxiety and panic attacks - mainly health anxiety thinking I'm going to have a heart attack every day or stroke or something. When those worries start the panic attack starts.
I had just managed to get it under control without medication but I know this will be a real set back. I had 2 attacks on the way back from the hospital and I feel extremely anxious that all my fears weren't futile and I will drop dead any day. I can't stop crying. I'm meant to be going on holiday on Saturday and it took a lot of work to build up to feeling able to fly and now I don't think I can.