I chose my profile picture because it represents that I dont recognize myself anymore. When i was a child I was naturally slim and running around everywhere - always on the go physically and mentally. This carried on throughout my teens and into my twenties when I had a very physical job managing a street outreach team in which even as the team grew larger i still had some shifts to cover and the hundreds of steps in the office base to run up and down several times a day.
I found it relatively easy to get back into shape after my first child in my late twenties - but when I had the twins at 34 it was far harder to lose the weight particularly as my body had changed so much in the process - but then I didnt have a car so pushing a twin buggy everywhere helped.
Looking back this was the first time i experienced real weight gain that I struggled to lose and 16 years on Ive been on a weight rollercoaster ever since, not helped by my jobs getting more sedantry as the years went on and a minimum of an hours daily driving commute.
Because I have managed to do it and keep the weight off for at least 3 years twice before I know I can do it again with a tightly organised mixture of daily fitness and careful diet - but this time i dont want to ever go back round this awful cycle again as Im not getting any younger or healthier AND it gets harder each time.
I'd hate to think that this was me for good as Im about 3.5 stone overweight and was at my heaviest ever when i started this in earnest a couple of weeks ago after several failed attempts earlier this year.
I'd appreciate any help and support you can send my way as I feel like Im looking up at a huge mountain.
In return you can expect me to try to be as helpful and supportive as i possibly can be as i always find it easier to help others more than myself.
Thanks for reading x <3