Hi everyone. Feeling pretty good this weekend
Went out last night to watch a band for the first time in months. Despite not actively hiding away I was conscious of my weight making me feel less inclined to socialise.
I have always been big, probably about 19 stones all my adult life. But I felt ok, reasonably fit - certainly able to keep up with my friends and never missed out of living because of my weight. I carried my weight well and most people would have guessed my weight at around 15 stones. When it did creep over the 20 stones about 13 years ago I did something about it and got down into the 16s and felt great and this is when I met my hubby. Since then I have gained weight at a rate of about 8lbs a year - not huge but it is over 10+ years on an already overweight person.
Like many people I have had my ups and downs but in the last 10 years there have been a lot of downs and difficult times meaning I simply didn't have the mental capacity (or thought I didn't, I probably did without appreciating it) to do anything about it.
The last 3 stones or so I put on completely changed my life - I stopped flying, worried all the time about not fitting into or breaking chairs and generally being conscious of how people viewed me. Before I had an air (false mainly but no one knew that) of confidence, I'd happily walk into a pub or club on my own to meet friends etc, but with the increased weight I just wouldn't do that any more. To be honest this didn't really dawn on me until I was out mingling with friends last night.
In the passed I'd wander about chatting to friends and making the odd new ones and I'd stand all evening watching the band and having a little boogie but lately I'd sit or lean up against anything in a corner only talking to people who came to me and if I had to stand all night (which was a struggle) I'd sweat buckets. Who wants and evening out when that is how you fell?!
BUT last night the old me was back and I was so pleased to see her again (I hardly appreciated how much I'd missed and needed her). It has taken 7 months (from tomorrow) to get the old me back and my hasn't it been worth it!
SO for anyone starting out and struggling for motivation, let me tell you it is so worth it. OK I still have a very long way to go - still in the 20s but getting the old me back just makes me more determined.
Oh yes, and someone noticed (yay!) - I mean a person who doesn't know I have been trying to lose weight and hasn't seen me for about 6 months - she said me and hubby looked fantastic and now I actually feel it.
Anyway, I hope that little update helps anyone wavering and for those I speak with here gives you a bit more background on me (whether you wanted it or not)
Have a great week everyone