Went out last night to watch a band for the first time in months. Despite not actively hiding away I was conscious of my weight making me feel less inclined to socialise.
I have always been big, probably about 19 stones all my adult life. But I felt ok, reasonably fit - certainly able to keep up with my friends and never missed out of living because of my weight. I carried my weight well and most people would have guessed my weight at around 15 stones. When it did creep over the 20 stones about 13 years ago I did something about it and got down into the 16s and felt great and this is when I met my hubby. Since then I have gained weight at a rate of about 8lbs a year - not huge but it is over 10+ years on an already overweight person.
Like many people I have had my ups and downs but in the last 10 years there have been a lot of downs and difficult times meaning I simply didn't have the mental capacity (or thought I didn't, I probably did without appreciating it) to do anything about it.
The last 3 stones or so I put on completely changed my life - I stopped flying, worried all the time about not fitting into or breaking chairs and generally being conscious of how people viewed me. Before I had an air (false mainly but no one knew that) of confidence, I'd happily walk into a pub or club on my own to meet friends etc, but with the increased weight I just wouldn't do that any more. To be honest this didn't really dawn on me until I was out mingling with friends last night.
In the passed I'd wander about chatting to friends and making the odd new ones and I'd stand all evening watching the band and having a little boogie but lately I'd sit or lean up against anything in a corner only talking to people who came to me and if I had to stand all night (which was a struggle) I'd sweat buckets. Who wants and evening out when that is how you fell?!
BUT last night the old me was back and I was so pleased to see her again (I hardly appreciated how much I'd missed and needed her). It has taken 7 months (from tomorrow) to get the old me back and my hasn't it been worth it!
SO for anyone starting out and struggling for motivation, let me tell you it is so worth it. OK I still have a very long way to go - still in the 20s but getting the old me back just makes me more determined.
Oh yes, and someone noticed (yay!) - I mean a person who doesn't know I have been trying to lose weight and hasn't seen me for about 6 months - she said me and hubby looked fantastic and now I actually feel it.
Anyway, I hope that little update helps anyone wavering and for those I speak with here gives you a bit more background on me (whether you wanted it or not)
Have a great week everyone
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Good times, Sueps - reversing the spiral, I call it ; and it's only going to get better!
What a fantastic post, you radiate honesty, determination and pride in yourself, I feel so happy for you.💋{{{{hug}}}}.
Anyone reading your post can't help be motivated not matter where they are in their journey. For me your post that sticks with me is the photo you took of all the bags of sugar a few months ago. It really helps when I'm on a wobble.
It sounds so good that you feel you are back, it is a very powerful feeling when we realise how much our hard work had got us back to where we want to be.
I know we both are still working towards our Santa goal, but as I said to Trafford1, hope you are putting some thought into your 'victory outfit'.lol (for some reason Boudecia comes to mind not sure it it's the look your after) lol.
Hi Flossie, I am already planning my Christmas outfit I bought a gorgeous top about 3 years ago but it didn't fit - too small around the belly. The belly now fits but the shoulders and sleeves are too big I may get it altered as it is lovely but it is a corset style so will need a little less belly and a bit more confidence - we'll see. Did Boudecia wear a corset?
This is a wonderful post sueper and it's good to get to know you a little more. I am so happy for you and I am glad you had such a great time with your friends and that your confidence is growing. It's always a great motivator when people notice the changes you see and pay you a compliment isn't it also lovely to hear you got the old you back and that you are happy with all you have achieved so far. Your doing great! Have a wonderful week sueper
Traff x
Hi Sueper,
Aww - how lovely to have got some of that confidence back Who were the band ? Any good ?! Well done anyway - sounds like you are doing really well, and a real inspiration to us all
What a fantastic post Sueper, it brought a lump to my throat and a tear to my eye. You are so inspirational and I hope in 7 months I'll be feeling exactly the same and will have the confidence to take my other half somewhere special for their 60'th.
Thanks for these lovely positive words and I'm sure in another 7 months, you'll be shouting even more of them from the rooftops
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I may get it altered as it is lovely but it is a corset style so will need a little less belly and a bit more confidence - we'll see. Did Boudecia wear a corset?
Fat Shamed By Doctor 
age-17
location-uk
height-5 ft 5
weight-19 stone
Introducing myself...
Newbie. Trying to eat more mindfully.
