It's been a funny old week, time for reflection and making plans for the future. Reading some of the posts this week have really hit home and made me think about how and what I want the future to look like. I'm sorry if I ramble but it has been a bit of a week.
I have been to the hospital this week and discovered after lots of toing and froing that I have a tumour returned, and even though I know it will be dealt with, second time lucky, it can be knocked on the head !!!!! it has made me think of all the things that are important in my life. so I made a list of everything I have to be grateful for. My lovely family ,friends and others that I care about. I looked at my list of positives and thought the other thing I needed to add was keeping up my weight loss and getting healthy again. OMG I am actually thinking about myself for a change, feels a bit selfish still though!!!!!!!!
When first was told my initial reaction was to go and eat something very bad and completely inappropriate. Of course the chips and sausage tasted horrible and still I ate, madness you might think, if it taste disgusting why carry on!!!!!! After a bit of a cry and some ice cream, ok a whole tub and feeling quite sick I did stop, thank heavens !!!!! Prior to starting the change for life I would have eaten far far more, I realised that I have always ate to fill the emotional hole. Instead of talking things through I eat for comfort. Even though this is not a revelation really, I think I have tried to ignore that nagging no-all voice in my head(Dave, it's my Bert!!!!!!) I have got to a place in my life where I am going to take note.(that would be a first, I am not known for listening or doing what I am told, my mother used to say stubborn, of course she was definitely wrong lol)
I have decided that I am going to keep on with my plan and step it up a gear. I have challenged myself to more cycle rides and walks. I know some of you do lots of exercise and I am in awe of all your great works but I know I have got to be the best I can within my constraints.
After reading Dave's post the other day I promised him a picture in my cheerleading dress (SEE BELOW) I have decided this is going to symbolise my way forward, so for all of you having a struggle or not sure what to do to move forward give a big cheer and promise yourself that you are worth everything and deserve to loss weight and be healthy.
Remember the chant I AM WORTH IT !!!!!!
PS thanks DAVE and SHELLIE for your inspirational posts this week and thanks to all the great people posting it has really helped me to stick to just one evening of gluttony and leave it at that :):)