Haven't been on forum for ages due to giving support to my family, and, its probably that plus my stupidity that has added 2stone to my weight from 18mths ago.
Looked at myself in mirror this morning side on and my inflated, obese abdomen is so big I look like I'm having twins!!! I'm not bad looking but at the moment I look awful and feel a mess.
Didn't help when hubby said "when did you last see your feet", it wasn't until later when I thought more about comment that it really upset me. He had said it in front of our daughter and grandson but she never said anything. When I told our son he said he would have been joking-but thats not the point... he had said it!!!
My blood pressure is higher than its ever been and I have to go hospital for week long event recorder-DO NOT want to go on medication as it never agrees with me. Its such a vicious circle, I want to lose this obese person and feel happy in myself and about myself but I'm stuck in this habitual eating pattern at night that I can't seem to stop, I feel emotional, like having a good cry and feel sorry for me but thats not the answer I know. I want to get back to being in control of my eating behaviour/habits but it just doesn't seem to even last a day without blowing everything.