This is going to be a depressing post but I feel like writing it down and admitting it publicly might help me rationalize this.
I am 26, 4ft 11 and weigh 14.5 stone. I have done every diet that there ever was. I do well for about 2 weeks then I self destruct big time, for a long period of time. My behavior around food scares me, i will make myself sick at least once a week, not on purpose, but from actually eating so much that my body cannot fit any more in. Half the time, I dont even remember eating, I will go the next day to make something and its empty and in the bin (I live on my own).
I have came to the realization that I self harm with food, that's what I do. It is incredibly unhealthy, I am incredibly unhealthy.
My GP is doing a referral to the weight management clinic, after a year of me asking and having put on another 9 lbs. Another 9lbs even though I have been "on a diet" continuously. In public I am, in private I eat non stop.
Has anyone been to these clinics and have they been helpful?
Thanks for reading,