I started my 'weightloss journey' in January, initially I did look into doing the NHS weightloss programme, however some of the changes just were too simple for me to achieve (I thought at the time).
I made meals in advance at the weekend (meal preparation) and this worked well for me. I also started walking to and from work (average five miles a day) and conciously drinking more fluid. I cut out alcohol for January and in the first month I had lost 13lbs.
My birthday was the 1st Feb so I knew that I could be greedy on my birthday weekend and I had something to look forward to. So I was turning down meals out and really dedicated.
After my birthday weekend I was not as consistent, despite my prepped meals I wasn't doing as much exercise the week after and my numbers were reducing really slowly. I gave myself a challenge of burning 1000 calories for 10 days, I managed this for four days, but I did not continue this as I find it very difficult to be as disciplined at the weekends.
Anyway my weightloss total to date is 17lbs. However I know this number has increased as I looked on the scales two weeks ago and I had put on 2lbs. I didn't even dare look at it this weekend as I knew it would be the same situation again.
I am so worried I am going to put it all back on again. I just feel out of control and I cannot get back to my losing ways I have successfully given up alcohol in March, something I don't find too difficult to do, although sometimes I regret my decision!! I just feel so alone with this feeling of bleurgh!!!
I hope to write kind of diary, to make me more accountable. Has anyone ever felt like this before??