27 weeks and 2 days. have had a bad past week sleep-wise and I think most of the ranting in because of it !!
Yesterday was the first time I slept by myself in the guest room. husband hated it and I can see that 'why are you doing it baby!' look on his face - but he cant do anything the head strong and mean woman that I am at times.
I am feeling annoyed by everything happening or not happening and apparently for no good damn reason.
Went shopping hoping it would cheer me up (as it always do to a shopaholic like me) - but no it made me feel even more worse - all the nice dresses I tried would not go below my bump and it is looking massive !! (Well I know I should have expected that at my 27th week - it is supposed to look massive). BTW I did buy all the dresses that did not roll below my bump hoping I would be able to wear them post-pregnancy.
My back hurts and I am walking like a snail. And above all I am getting totally irritated by anyone asking questions (even if its as simple as whats for dinner - well you would know whats for dinner once its served, isnt it!!)
Yesterday I also went on telling my husband that its all because of him that I am going through all this (which I later felt bad about - but the realization that it was not a good thing to say has not really changed my attitude).
Have not talked to mum in 4 days now, she is calling and I am not picking - just dont want to !!
When mom-in-law asked about how is my health I went all cheeky for no reason and said how does she expect a pregnant woman with apparently no major sickness to be feeling like.
I am playing the music which normally soothes me, also meditating ! but its not really helping !! and I think I am so going to end up spoiling our so looked for vacation starting this coming Thursday.
I am at the height of being mean ! and bursting out in tears ! and I am kind of oscillating between gladness and sadness about the whole idea of being a mum !!
My best friend called and greeted me with 'Hey momma how you doing' and I said get lost bitch! and banged the phone on her face.
why am I getting so aggressive ? and sad !
Also, scolded my brother publicly on facebook for not such a good reason !!
I am getting really really annoyed and I cant figure out why !!