heres my time to have a little moan. and sorry to ramble on....
im currently 21 weeks. and sleeping on my brothers sofa. the father of the baby left me when i was admitted to hospital at 8 weeks with hyperemesis. i spent 4 weeks in hospital and my sister in law insisted i stay with her and she looks after me when i was recovering after leaving hospital. which i have done. (might i add not much help though!!)
they are fond of alcohol. and i mean quite a lot. and problems occur when she drinks as shes on anti depressants. so thats one less stress i need.
i have had to put myself on the local housing list as i dont have savings behind me anymore to afford to buy or private rent a property especially with a baby on the way and having been off work on sick pay for nearly 10 weeks.
im not on a bad wage with work and do plan on returning full time after my maternity is over. but the wage i do get goes mainly on outgoings. (loans, and bills i have to pay)
so it leaves me with hardly anything a week.
i know i will not be entitled to housing benefits or the bond scheme as i earn £18 more than the bracket, and im willing to pay for rent on a council property.
I had a phone call today of the council to tell me they have space available in a local hostel, but as im earning it will cost me £158 a week!! thats right...£632 a month (which is a months rent for a decent house round here, with 4 bedrooms maybe)
and to add to the bombshell, the kids there have chicken pox.
not an ideal situation for me. i feel like ive been dealt a bad card. i know bringing up a baby isnt easy but i just wanted things to be ok. as long as i was surviving and had a small house to prepare for the baby then i could manage. but that seems out of hinds reach.
thinking about all this is getting me down. i get so upset, which doesnt help my HG and dont know where else to turn for advice. xx