Few days back I was cribbing that I am not feeling pregnant at all and I do not feel anything about the baby yet.
I am in my 20th week now - still not feeling pregnant - rather more active and happy as i said before - but I have started to feel like a mommy in small proportions - Although I still want to have a baby girl (a little me) and I still have no clue what would i do if i get a baby boy (I mean they dont wear cute tutu net skirts or need lovely clips and flowers in their hair and they dont even insist on nail-paints or lipsticks lest spoiling them)
last weekend was rather amazing, it was my birthday so we decided to go to ISKCON (Its the International Society for Krsna Consciousness) the day was filled with lots of holy chants and singing and spiritual talks - I felt that the baby is listening too ( and that is one of the reason we planned it) - It was the first time for my husband to go for a spiritual weekend get away (he is so Dutch :P) and I could see him running around like a kid - he was I think more happier that he can possibly say.
My husband is not too good at expressing by words (cave-man I know). But if he is happy, or sad or emotional or feeling sensitive etc I get to know it through his eyes and body language (and many a times I have to feed him the words so that he can verbally express himself)
I was feeling little concerned as to how would he be able to express love to a little child, who would probably need more talking and tell and re-assuring than I do - and something nice happened - suddenly my hubby wanted to talk to my belly - he started this whole process by caressing my bump for couple of days (till probably he actually got the feeling of being a dad) and than before I could realize it even, he was already talking to my belly and today morning like all the excited dad's he actually went on to put his ear on my bump to see if he can hear the baby.... that was sooo adorable !
And yup since last some days I am also feeling more confident about raising babies .... we are in more than one way ready to welcome our bundle of joy in few months