Today i am 37 weeks pregnant with my second child who is due on 12th February. I also have a daughter who will be 2 on 24th Feb! My goodness, what a contrast in pregnancy experiences.
I pretty much sailed through my first pregnancy. Yes i had morning sickness which was, in reality, all day nausea until about 18 weeks however i was able to indulge my every need. Outside of work i could sleep when i wanted, eat what i wanted and when, go out in the evening or stay in if i fancied. When i went into labour i ran baths during the night and i didnt worry about going off to hospital in fact i desperately wanted to be there!
I have learnt how very different it is with a small child to consider as well. Morning sickness and dirty nappies do not mix!! My daughter is fabulous but very demanding and she didnt start walking until she was nearly 19 months old so poor old pregnant mum had to lug her around everywhere. I nearly cried with relief when she took her first proper steps. As for sleep and rest, how do you rest with a toddler?? Its the toss up between getting into bed when she does after lunch or using that precious time to get house work done (the housework didnt get done!).
Now i am getting close to giving birth the worries and anxieties are really setting in. I have developed really bad pelvic girdle pain to the point that i can hardly walk and certainly cant lift anything. This makes looking after my daughter really hard. I have Group B strep so have been told i must go into hospital as soon as my waters break or if my contractions are 10 mins apart so they can hook me up to IV antibiotics. Plus baby is still back to back which could see me in for a long labour and i am going for a VBaC! There will be no relaxing baths in the middle of the night for fear of waking my daughter and i will feel stressed the whole time that she is upset or unsettled because i am not there. What if she wakes in the night and i am not there to sooth her? This stresses me out far more than the thought of birth!!! And if i end up needing another cesarean? Nightmare, i couldnt possibly manage two children after that operation.
Its not all doom and gloom. I am excited about meeting my new baby and all of us starting our new life together. I just hope he decides to make an appearance soon so i can start to relax about things again and get on with life. This is it now, no more babies!