Monday the 19th, is the day for my 2nd scan after the 1st showed a gestation sac with a yolk but no heartbeat! the conclusion was intrauterine pregnancy of uncertain viability. Following that I had 2 days of moderate bleeding with clots, doesn't sound good I know with stringy bits sorry to explain further, now spotting very small amounts of fresh blood.
I then found out my recurrent Barthoilin's cyst also showed up normally occurs once a year. Now on antibiotics for that. Part of me is prepared for the worst and the other half is hanging on just in case. I have headaches now and tiredness which comes and goes. I have done extensive reading, and the more I read the more I get divided. I have cried, wished, hoped and now I'm just waiting. Not knowing is the worst part of this, preganancy test is positive 5 days post the bleed but for some women it can apparently stay so until 3 weeks following a miscarriage.
I hope to find out on monday whatever the outcome i am prepared so that i can move on either way. There is no easy answers and whatever we do in life only God holds answers to everything. Even with all the technology that we have, you are sent home to wait for a week, lucky in my case others wait even longer!
It is agony not knowing. I have lost a lot of people in my life. I did not know that I could go through all these emotions for a seven week pregnancy! I guess it is grieving for what could have been and the baby I will never meet if that is the case. God knows best and please God let monday come very quick so i find out what you have planned for me, whatever the outcome God is the greatest and everything happens for a reason sometimes we hurt so much and loose faith and hope but the best thing is to have hope and faith whatever life throws our way.