On the day of my 12 week scan, we discovered that baby had to much fluid in the brain. We were referred to specialists hospital for more tests. Unfortunately when we went a week later it was discovered there was four more abnormalities with baby and it would not survive. We came the the hard choice of termination of the pregnancy and started the process the next day. This Saturday just gone I became no longer pregnancy, I was brave and in control as I knew it was the right thing to do for my baby. Now it just comes in waves the loss and realising there no more bundle of joy coming next year. I'm so scared if we do try again it will happen again and I won't enjoy my first 12 weeks as I will be a wreak. But also am I a bad person in still wanting another baby already and I think as well I just need to talk about it out loud and know if anyone been through what I have.
Sorry for the long write and question x