Went to hospital this morning for planned gynaecological surgery after my episiotomy scar healed badly. Was in the process of being admitted, consent form signed, wee sample done and hospital bands on wrists only to have a grumpy matron walk in and send me home as the trust decided to 'cancel all operations'.
After having such a traumatic birth following fertility treatment, to the extend where I have ended up needing therapy for PND and PTSD, and the constant feeling of uncertainty as to whether I was actually mismanaged during labour, I have kept positive and been okay knowing that the surgery was hopefully going to move me forwards and then this morning almost feels as though I have gone 10 steps backwards.
I do work in the NHS and I completely understand the pressures at the moment, but as a patient, psychologically this has really affected me today.
There was no indication of when the next date will be and even the Consultant said there is a good chance this will happen again if and when the next date comes round.
Sex is so painful which psychologically has had a massive impact negatively on my mood and I just don't know where to turn to next.
I emailed PALS after my Consultant encouraged me to voice my opinion but I'm not hopeful there will be any resolution soon to be honest.
Not even sure as to the point of my post, just needed to vent as you have all been such an amazing support network for me ♥️