Miscarriage

[MichyK]

I am 44 years old and after trying for a baby for over a year and a half - i was diagnosed with endometriosis during that time - I find out that I am pregnant.

I am absolutely over the moon as I was told the likelihood of falling pregnant naturally, if at all, was slight!!

I had always hoped to be a mum but never thought it would happen especially being 44 and then being told I have endometriosis.

I go see my dr - she makes me do a urine test and then congratulates me, tells me I am 6 weeks pregnant and sends me to the early pregnancy unit at my local hospital.

I go to the hospital and have a scan.

I am told the heartbeat is very slow and that I may miscarry and to go back in 2 weeks. Her words aren’t really registering!

Those were the longest 2 weeks ever!!! All I could think about was that poor little thing inside me trying to live!

2 weeks later (Wednesday just gone) I go back and I am told there is no heartbeat and that I have miscarried.

I cry and then I am told my options;

1. Come back in 2 weeks and see if I have properly miscarried and all has come away

2. Take pills to bring on full miscarriage

3. Have op

I decided to go with the pills as I can’t bare to wait another 2 weeks and I really don’t want an op!

No one knows any of this apart from my partner - who I think deep down is happy that I have miscarried - he is 47 and has 3 kids from a past marriage and so he feels he has been there, done it and past it!

He isn’t really the most sensitive or understanding person either

So here I am going through this all on my own really.

No one apart from him knew I was pregnant.

No one apart from him knows I have miscarried.

No one knows what’s going on in my head.

I am in my own little world.

I cry at anything.

I feel a void.

I feel so very alone.

My hope of having something that was mine and for me has been cruelly taken away

[sweetilemon]

Sorry to hear about your miscarriage and how unsupportive your partner is. Have you gone onto the website Sands? They have a great forum. Ive never miscarried but although totally different, my child died as an infant. They have different sections in the forum, it might be good to talk to other woman who have experienced similar. Sands also have a phone line to talk to someone. Wishing you a healthy happy pregnancy in future if that's what you would like.

[joiamadi]

Sorry about u miscarriage.. I know just how u feel cos I had almost similar case. Did ICSI in december 2017 it was negative after the two weeks long wait. Did another ICSI in jan/feb 2018 it was strongly positive after the two weeks wait.. Everyone was excited cos we were expecting our triplets.. In April (8weeks) I went for my first scan but got the most terrible news of my life dat my babies are under developing n that I may miscarry them.. Lost them ending April.. May we went to d hospital was booked for Endometrial scrapping as a result of endometriosis.. My dear instead of crying hubby n I took the case to d Doctor above all doctors (Almighty God) he took charge n now am carry our baby naturally didn't do the so called endometrial scrapping as my doctor's suggested. So dear I will advice u worry less n pray more cos anxiety won't help u now.. Continue to thank God for ur babies, continue to thank him for another successful pregnancy without complications. Just relax am so sure ur testimony is just within... I will also pray alongside with u. Its well.