Worried

[KaleidoNoo]

Long story short. I'm 43, I have a 4 year old from a previous relationship. Started dating in June after being single for about 3 years. I met someone amazing. After morning after pill failed I discovered I was pregnant. I was so scared and shocked. It is absolutely unplanned. I looked into going to a clinic and I couldn't pursue that route. My boyfriend is being supportive, he has a 7 year old son.

At 8 weeks I had brown discharge and it has freaked me out so much. I've continued to have it on and off since last Saturday night. I no I can't change anything if I'm going to find out bad news. I can't be seen by the EPAU until Friday. This whole experience has been surreal and I would love everything to work out. I'm very quietly having a complete freak out. I'm still feeling nauseated and having those early pregnancy feelings of my uterus stretching and now I have a hum dinger of a cold.

I really needed to get this off my chest. I haven't told many about being pregnant through fear of family and friends being judgmental. Contraception failed, I took the MAP and it didn't work. If baby is ok then he or she is a fighter.

I'm hoping to hear from anyone with a similar story or just a bit of kindness.

[jowalk6]

Hi hun, I had my youngest at 42 after being on my own 10 years since my ex husband. I know you probably went into panic mode when you first found out, but it will all work out. You have the support of your partner. I too was worried about telling my family even my two sons were brilliant. My parents were great about it. All babies are a blessing. I am sure all be okay, I will be thinking of you and hope you get the outcome you want x

[KaleidoNoo in reply to jowalk6]

Thank you jowalk6 for taking the time to reply. I still feel so dazed about being pregnant at all and so worried about the scan tomorrow (Friday) I appreciate your reassurance and kind words. Very much appreciated. x

[mrsoneill]

Congratulations! At around 8 weeks you can get implantation bleeding so could be that, hope all goes well for you at the early scan tomorrow. I had bleeding throughout my whole first trimester and had my little one in June. I hope that all goes well, do not worry about people being judgemental those that love n care about you should support u and be happy for you xx

[Supermummy]

All babies are blessings! Good luck with the pregnancy! If family aren't supportive at first they may need to time to get use to the idea. Give them time then those who love you will understand and support you. Pregnancy is a difficult time as it is its great you have such a loving and caring partner. Fingers crossed for you!

[KaleidoNoo]

Thank you everyone for your replies and encouragement.

Update time.

I don't think the news or outlook is good. The sonographer couldn't see the heartbeat and said that she would be surprised if I waited that the pregnancy would be viable. She said I was measuring small for 8 weeks.

However having a second appointment with the midwife following the scan, they have recommended I wait two weeks and have a further scan because they felt the results were inconclusive. That it may be too early to have seen a heartbeat.

The notes say that what was seen dates me at about 6 weeks. I know that conception would have happened when the contraception failed on the 13th Aug, that would make me almost 7 weeks.

I am not keeping my hopes up at all and assume that at some point in the next few weeks I will bleed and suffer the full loss, I'm scared about this happening. I'm of course devastated but this has been the most surreal experience I've been through. I've had a big cry. I'm doing as ok as I can be. I'm missing my daughter terribly and can't wait to pick her up from school. Flipping heck, I wouldn't wish this experience on anyone. I wish no woman ever miscarried.