I am 39+5 pregnant, and should be feeling totally over the moon with excitement. It took us 3 long years, 3 lots of surgery, countless tests and procedures and 2 rounds of IVF to conceive. I would've done anything just to have a child. Throughout the pregnancy I have felt hugely bonded to my baby and overjoyed at being pregnant, albeit with the normal anxiety about everything being ok. We have done NCT classes, written our birth plan and felt as prepared as can be for any eventuality.
However the last few days I have headed into a downward spiral of depression. I cannot stop crying, I feel totally disconnected from my baby and just want everything & everyone to go away. Initially I thought it was fear of birth as I am being induced on Wednesday, but after spending a few days feeling really confused about why I felt so bad I have realised that it is more than that and I am feeling really alienated and low about pretty much everything.
People keep calling and texting for news, and saying how exciting it all is, but I don't feel excited. I just feel like I want to jump in the car and run away from it all (obviously not possible). I am fed up of people (even strangers) asking me how long I have to go and feel like I am no longer a person, just a pregnancy.
I don't want to feel like this and I know hormones are playing a part, but I am really struggling a lot. I feel like prenatal depression has jumped up and got me at the last minute.
Anyone else ever felt like this?