Well ladies, the scan was lovely (we got in half an hour early so that made it even better 😊), as soon as the sonograher went near my belly, number 1 popped onto the screen, and it wasn't a few seconds before number 2 was in sight aswell. Both were shnuggled up together in the 69 position. All measurements are looking good and babies are a good size AND both within a couple of mm's of each other, which is a relief seeing as they are sharing the same placenta. They both have what look like crazy long legs which they gave full display of when they both stretched out to fully capacity 😊.
We also saw the consultant who literally ran through everything at warp factor 10. Found out that now we will be having scans every 2... Yes I said 2!!!! Weeks! I am literally gunna be living there lol at first they told me every 4 which was lovely in itself but now it just gets better lol I'm not sure how I could cope with a single pregnancy now, having to wait until 20 weeks! Jeez, I was all panicy that I didn't really "feel" pregnant besides the belly, but to wait for 20 weeks!!!! I do feel sorry for you ladies that have to wait, it drove me insane getting to 16 weeks.
Well anyways, it's looking likely that I'll be having a c-section, which I am unsure as to how I feel about at the moment. Ok, no I am sure. I'm a little bit miffed, no, I am upset, that the words just flowed out of the consultants mouth "it's very likely that you will be delivering by c-section". There was no question as to how I would like to deliver our little bundles of wonderfulness. I am aware that they have probably decided that that would be the safest and best way for them to come into the world, but I feel it could have been discussed a little bit before outright telling me that there is a very good chance that I won't be delivering naturally. I haven't really thought about until I have written this post so I apologise if it gets a little whiney and samey (not being helped by the fact that I feel very hormonal this morning!!!). I'm not gunna feel what a contraction feels like and I'm not gunna be given the chance to bring babies into the world myself. And hell, I know that c-sections are no easy way out because recovery is so major, but I can't help but think I'm letting these little people down a little bit.
I suppose I'm scared about the fact that I don't know how I am gunna react when it comes to just being shown my babies for the first time rather than holding them or them being put onto my chest so that I have that first cuddle until a while later. The prospect of pushing my babies into the world has always terrified the living day lights out of me, but deep down that is what we are programmed to do and my brain just isn't seeming to cope with the idea of doing something else. Feel a little bit useless right now.
Oh, ladies I'm sorry, this post started off so lovely and now look!
I think I'm just gunna go and calm down a bit and I'll talk to you all later.
Thankyou for all your on-going support guys, I really don't know what I'd do without you ladies xxxxxxxxxxx