Okay a little back story first- After spending 2 years waiting to concieve and getting really down and depressed about it I discovered I was pregnant in August.
For the first few weeks I was mostly excited and relieved after all that wait but now I'm 14 nearly 15 weeks and I'm finding it really hard to feel that same kind of joy. I feel like it hasn't quite sunk in and that I don't really feel pregnant despite having had nausea and all sorts of symptoms and seen my wiggling about happy as Larry on the ultrasound screen.
I'm feeling overwelmed at the amount of things I think I need to do like buying supplies and I haven't a clue where to start despite reading so many lists on websites.
And most of all I'm scared that I'm not going to love them when they arrive as I don't really feel like I have a bond yet. I can't feel them yet and I can't see them I feel almost like they're not there. I've tried making some time to sit and relax and spend time with them but I just feel silly talking to my stomach when I feel like there's no one there.
I'm worried I won't be a good mum.
Has anyone else felt like this?
Feeling a bit alone at the moment. I told all my friends and family last week and they're all super excited and asking me how I am snd I have to keep putting a brave face on it as they're all expecting me be as happy as they are.
I really don't get why I'm not happy I've wanted this for so long and I want everything to be okay.