This is only my 2nd post on here and I surpose you could say they are a bit of a rollercoaster of emotions.
My first post
was all about my blueness at the time it is taking my husband I to concieve.
This one is about my new agonising wait.
I'm 5 days late for my period. I really want to do a test but have promised my husband we'll wait until Wednesday when it will be 7 days late in case I'm just on a longer cycle. I was 9 days late last july which I blamed on the big heatwave we had in the uk. I took a test then and got a big fat negative so I'm a bit reluctant to test even though I'm late. My cycle hasn't always been regular but the last year or 2 the only hiccup was the one last year. If anything I'm usually early not late.
I've had a few symptoms such as cramps and a churny tummy before I was due to start my period last week and I've been a bit headachey and tired but I've just come of a big active family holiday. It's all stuff that I could explain away, including my wobbly emotions which I just put down to my depression rearing it's ugly head again.
I'm really anxious about what will happen Wednesday. If I'm pregnant I'll be dead chuffed and then probably incredibly nervous about what that has in store but if I'm not then I'm not sure how I'm goimg to react. I keep telling myself that if I'm not then it's okay I can focus on other things like loosing the final stone and a pound I have left till I have a normal bmi. I just don't want it to suck the life out of me.