I'm in need of some reassurance. I'm feeling so miserable at the moment. I'm completely fed up of being pregnant and don't feel like I can focus on the idea of being a mum either so I just feel dreadful and like I'm not looking forward to anything at all.
I don't feel like the pregnancy will ever end, and even though I'm not officially due yet I'm really anxious about going overdue because I'm due to have a stretch and sweep on Friday with my midwife, and after having been raped 6 years ago I really don't cope well with any invasive procedures, or hospitals. I'm booked to have a home birth, and my midwife is coming to my home on Friday, because she is holiday next week when I have an appointment with another midwife I don't know at the surgery for the option of another s&s and to talk about booking induction, but i really don't feel i could cope in hospital, and the idea of a procedure at the surgery with someone I don't know is really freaking me out.
I have tried keeping mobile and relaxing and not focussing on labour, but I don't feel up to doing anything or seeing anyone today. I'm ignoring texts, emails, and phone calls because every 'how are you doing? Feels like a 'have you had the baby yet?' And I feel bad about being so unhappy when my baby is so nearly here.
Does anyone else feel like this?