I am 12 weeks pregnant with my 2nd baby. My little girl will be around 20 months when it's born in Jan.
I had a really traumatic birth with my first and since i found out i'm pregnant again I can't help but be almost constantly thinking and worrying about the birth this time around. I had been convinced that I would demand a C Section to avoid the risk of it happening again but I know a C Section comes with it's own issues.
To cut a long story short i was pretty badly torn and lost a lot of blood by the time she was out.
I'm just terrified that if I give birth naturally again that it might cause some more serious damage to the already damaged bit of me!
Any advice would be really gratefully recieved. I am going to be seeing a specialise midwife at some point to talk through what happened and why it happened but i know the midwives always encourage you to have a natural birth if possible so i really need some frank and honest opinions.
Thanks so much.