Hi all mummies and mummies to be I hope you're all well, mums and babies alike I am 38 weeks today and found out yesterday at my routine midwife appt that my little girl has turned around and is now in the breech position I had been thinking for weeks that she felt in an awkward position, I had even asked last week at my appt what position she was in and the midwife who looked after me was not sure... I reckon she moved in this position weeks ago, I can remember that fateful night of nonstop movement, really quite uncomfortable and me being delirious in bed with it too... I should have guessed and raised the alarm earlier, After a day at the hospital with my partner and hearing lots of different opinions about what I should do about it, we opted for an attempt at turning her around and booked it for next week. But I completely broke down about it when I got home and realised I had made the wrong decision and was scared to death of having it done. In the end , I rang them back this morning and have chosen the elective c-section as I have a bicornate womb anyway which reduces the chances of her turning even further, I am awful at giving birth naturally and spend hours pushing a head out, let alone a bum, and have the lowest pain threshold known to mankind!!
All in all, I feel that the c-section is definitely the safest for my baby and me, I spent hours debating and crying over it last night... I have a date for her arrival now, next Thursday the 13th and I am actually so excited I cannot wait!! Knowing my little baby though and her track record so far in this pregnancy, she might not be finished yet with her mischievous ways and it wouldn't surprise me if something happens before the 13th... I hope I recover ok after the section and don't get too frustrated and sad at not being able to do all the things I want to do, that is my only worry. Please don't judge me for chosing the "easy" option over the natural one, I've done it twice before and don't see the point in doing it naturally for the sake of it, I won't get a medal anyway I found it really difficult yesterday, under the pressure of all these health professionals trying to influence me to choose the "natural" option. Thank god my partner, my mum and my sister reminded me that at the end of the day it is my body and my baby inside it and that only I can decide what's best for both of us. The weirdest thing about this whole story is that months ago, at the beginning of my pregnancy, I had an extremely vivid dream that I was getting ready for a c-section at the hospital and that I could see my little girl's face clearly through my skin. It was the most beautiful dream and I woke up crying with joy, knowing that it was a girl. She turned out to be a girl indeed and now I'm having a c-section. I wonder if she will look like she did in my dream... The image is still clear in my head so I will let you know!
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