I'm nearly 29 weeks and getting myself into a bit of a tizzy at the moment and just need to air my thoughts...
Because if my age and stats I have a 1:867 chance of my baby having Downs. I know this is technically low risk, and my husband is happy with those odds, but I can't get it out of my head and I'm a bit frightened. Before I knew of the risk of miscarriage I'd have considered an amnio, but when I found out the odds of miscarriage is greater than the risk of her having Downs, it made no sense.
Over the summer I got myself upset because I'd glossed all the skirting boards in the living room and dining room and convinced myself I'd hurt the baby by giving her nerve damage from the fumes
And now, because my baby isn't started by loud noises, I'm worried she's deaf
In my head, at the moment, I have a nerve damaged, deaf, Downs baby growing inside me
Oh yeah, as well as all the general worries and paranoia that I'm doing the right things and eating the right things and will I be a good enough Mum...blah di blah di blah.
Last week I was excited but all these negative feelings are getting on top of me today. Probably hormones & tiredness but I can't get it out of my head. Plus am getting increasingly anxious that my husband STILL hasn't sorted out driving lessons for himself (he said he'd do an intensive weekend thing so that he can drive us to hospital and bring us home after the birth) and I just feel like we're running out of time.
(Just typing this out is making me cry so I'm going to go and make myself a cup of tea.)