Hi ladies I'm a bit worried and need some advice.
Background info... I'm 20 with two kids, my oldest nearly 3 and my new little baby of 3 months, both of them conceived accidently on the mini pill. I live with my partner (father to my youngest) and live 45 mins away from any other family/freinds/support. ATM I'm a sahm but want to get back to work ASAP. I've also been suffering with depression due to being isolated from freinds and family.
I'm a bit worried, we'll actually I'm terrified, that I may be pregnant again. I've been taking the mini pill again for around a month and a Half but missed a few days, I haven't had a period since child birth but the mini pill has always stopped my periods. we'd had sex a few times using a condom but last Sunday ( the 15th) we had sex without protection. I know it was beyond stupid.
Yesterday I noticed spots of brown blood in my underwear, I wiped and the was a little more, I put a pad on thinking I was starting my period but throughout the day there was just one more drop of brown blood and nothing more since. I'm petrified that this was implantation bleeding and that I'm pregnant again.
We're not in the position to have another baby yet, financially or emotionally, I'm finding it stressful enough as it is. If I am, I don't know if I could have a abortion, I'd effectively be killing my child, I can't stomach the thought of that. But to have another baby so soon? Could I cope!? What would everyone think of me? That would be my childbearing days over so soon. I kind of wanted to save anther child for later on in life once I'd got a career. And my partner.... He'd hit the roof, either way Id be to scarred / ashamed to tell him, I'd have to go through an abortion on my own or keep it and move back to my dads for support. I just don't know what to do ...