After 8-9 years of trying for a baby and doctors telling us we couldn't conceive, I finally became pregnant with my third child at the beginning of this year I'm just approaching 26 weeks now but it feels like a part of my brain just won't accept the reality that I will be having my baby in around 3 months time. I keep thinking I will wake up and find it was all a dream. So many times in the last 9 years I have had dreams where I was pregnant or holding and feeding my beautiful baby, only to wake up in the morning and feel a real sense of loss
My in laws have just been to visit and brought up a cot which is now assembled in our bedroom but it seems so unreal. I'm sure when I am finally holding the little one in my arms I will finally be able to accept that it really is happening to me but it would be good to feel accepting and properly maternal before then.