Hi guys. This is my first post so far, and I think I'm not looking for answers as such - I just want to find out whether other people have experienced similar feelings and emotions.
This is my first pregnancy and I'm 8.5 weeks now. My initial response to having the baby was excitement and joy - and my partner shares these feelings. Recently though I have started having some mixed feelings. I was planning to start a university course in September, which has to be put on hold for now (I can't imagine giving birth in January and then returning to uni straight after - what do you think?). I also feel that my body has started to change - the edges are rounding out, I think I have already started gaining weight, my belly is often bloated and also more "flabby" than it used to.
I'm getting married in a few weeks and obviously wanted to look great. Instead I feel like I'm putting on weight, and looking tired due to lack of sleep and feeling sick all the time. I feel very sick all day long, but eating seems to help, and I haven't (yet) had the urge to throw up, so am probably eating more than usual.
I had to give up this course, give up rock climbing, going out in the evenings (too weak and tired) etc. and I'm starting to feel resentful for all the things that this little baby is taking away from me.
I feel horrible for feeling this - I wish I could just be a serene, healthy mother-to-be who looks forward to her baby's arrival, but if I'm honest, at the moment this pregnancy is really draining the life out of me.
Thanks for reading.