Hi,
I posted 5 weeks ago after a sudden big bleed at 5 weeks pregnant. I've since had 4 scans which have shown the baby has developed but I have this blood clot. At 5 weeks it wasn't visible, at 7 weeks it had appeared, at 8 weeks it had shrunk and they weren't concerned, at 10 weeks it had doubled in size. I've not had any bleeding since the 5 weeks and have tried really hard to take it easy but I have a toddler so I have to lift her and do the shopping etc and my job wouldn't really allow for sick leave/bed rest. I am terrified that I will get so far and then have a late miscarriage because of this haematoma and I don't really understand what the prognosis is. I suffer badly with anxiety problems and I am literally going out of my mind with panic, I even considered having a termination because it could remove the risk of losing my baby late when I have become so attached. I feel like I am going a bit crazy. I've had 2 miscarriages and the last left my hospitalised and I swore I couldn't face that again, now I face potentially worse,
I saw the baby wriggling around on Tuesday, so cute. And next to it was this big shadow showing the bleed and I can't handle the lack of control or knowledege. The sonographers have ranged from being non-fussed and saying it will definitely be reabsorbed to being more concerned and saying it poses a risk as long as it is there.
Not sure what I am looking for, just feeling sorry for myself really and don't know anyone in this situation. I stupidly googled it and read so many horror stories and its freaked me out. Anyone with nice words please step forward!!!!
Thanks
So sorry you are feeling so panicked. It sounds like you haven't been given enough information and support. Can you talk it through with your midwife or ask to speak to consultant obstetrician about it? I would hate to think of you suffering through out your pregnancy with the worry of this. Terminating your pregnancy is a massive decision. I really think you need to talk it through with someone so they can help you with your anxiety if nothing else. Best wishes and I hope you get some suppo from your midwife xx