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I want to give everyone a big hello and hug! I have been absent for a number of reasons. You know my dearest friend Jonnie is dying of cancer, everywhere in her tiny body. I finally got her in a hospice facility when she confided in me that her daughter was completely abusing her! She was starving, literally, etc. She probably has a week, maybe ten days. So I spend as much time as possible with her. She has so many beloved friends. But I grieve.

I was not sure what to do with my life. Our house sale closes, Lord willing, on Dec. 3. So I rented an Airbnb in Branson, Missouri from Dec. 7 to Jan 7. I am considering moving there and this will allow me to make sure I love it and find a permanent place. Look it up if you can. It is a charming, small touristy town in the Ozark mountains with tons of lakes. Christmas is supposed to be magical. It will be a 19 hour drive, but I will break it into small pieces. Love to all, give me your feedback please, I so welcome it. Feeling confused about life but really need a fresh start. Love, Kelly xxoo

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Royjr

Hello Kelly, it has been a little by time. Glad you’re doing ok but sorry about your friend 🙏🏽. Spending time with her will make you and her feel so much better, so make her final days the best you can.

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Amore55 in reply to Royjr

Royjr. Thank you so much for your kind words. It is so hard to lose someone who is like your mom. She is so precious. Thank you. Much love to you. Kelly

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Kenu

Sorry 😐 about your friend🙏. Cancer ♋️ is so hard and then have someone abusing you is terrible 🤬. Good thing she has a close friend like you 👍. Prayers are with both of you and hope you’re move goes well 🙏🙏🙏🐾. Ken

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Amore55 in reply to Kenu

Kenu. Thank you so very much for your kind words. I love you and hope you know I always include you in my prayers. Love, Kelly xx

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RoseySawyer

I hope all goes well for you and your friend. ❤🌷

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RoseySawyer thank you for your reply. What wonderful support! Love, Kelly xx

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Aww my friend you have the heart of an Angel! You are thought of often! 🤗💕

~May Your Friend Be Wrapped in The Wings Of Angels Always~

And Kel, you have a good time at your bnb! 🤗💕love you

J🌠

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Amore55

Jesmcd2 thanks, Jes, for your kind words. I highly doubt I have the heart of an angel, but I try! Thank you for the sweet thought for my dear friend, she is truly an angel. I will be in touch soon, okay? Otherwise, look out...Christmas in Missouri! Fresh start here I come! I love you Jes! Kelly xx

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jimeka

Kelly, you were so much on my mind this morning, and then I come on here and there is a post from you. So good to hear from you. I am so sorry about your friend, be with her as much as you can but don’t be disappointed if she slips away while you go for coffee, some people like to slip away on their own. Be assured that she will appreciate everything you have done for her, so enjoy her last few days and be certain that you have done your best, because you have. Keep in touch and stay as healthy as you can. Love and hugs Jimeka 🤗

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Amore55 in reply to jimeka

jimeka as always you offer wise words. I am spending as much time with her as I can, however, knowing what a rascal she has always been, she will probably slip peacefully away when I am not there. She is in such pain, it will be somewhat of a blessing, as I cannot bear to watch her suffer. It is everywhere, even in her arms, which she says hurt unbearably. Thank you for your friendship. I love you, my friend. Kelly xx

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Jazzihorsecat

Kelley love, so good to hear from you! We all missed you as you can see. You being tbere is helping your friend, Bless her heart💐❤ & yep Branson is absolutley beautiful! We wish we could move to the Ozarks! 👍 I wish you the best & you're always in my Prayers. Love You sweety!💗❤💐---Jazzy🌹💜

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Amore55 in reply to Jazzihorsecat

Jazzy, thank you so much for your sweet thoughts. I cherish each bit of support I have gotten. Bless you. Love, Kelly xx

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Kelly,

I only know you through this forum, but I know that if we were to meet in person, we would become fast friends!

My thoughts and prayers are with you during this difficult time. Jonnie is blessed to have a friend in you. Make her as comfortable as you can.

Keep Smiling,

Carole

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Amore55 in reply to carolek572

I agree, we would surely be close friends! Thank you for your kind words. Love, Kelly xx

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ssdw1958

Hi i'm so glad that you are there for your friend it is terrible what her daughter was doing to her. She must be so thankful that you were there to save her from all people her daughter.

i hope you find the perfect place to settle down in. Enjoy your stay and don't rush it you want to love it.

Sandra aka ssdw1958

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Amore55 in reply to ssdw1958

ssdw1958 it is so impossible to imagine how anyone could abuse a dying, frail older woman, but especially their mom. I am so very grateful she is in a safe place, with countless friends visiting her. She is the most beloved person I have ever known. Thank you for your kind words. Love, Kelly xx

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bxrmom

I know your friend is thankful that you saved her. That is so sad that her daughter was abusing her. Best wishes for your move, from what I hear those Airbnbs are great! Please keep us updated when you can. Love being sent to you and your friend.

Jessie

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Amore55 in reply to bxrmom

Jessie, thank you so much for replying. Each comment is so cherished. What a blessing this forum is! Love, Kelly xx

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kdali

Wow, so very sorry to hear that your friend was being abused. I’m glad you’re spending time with her now, when it’s ugly and when it makes you feel helpless, because it matters a whole lot to her now. You’re such an awesome friend! 🤗😭😘

I’ve never been to Branson, but I don’t have to look it up! 🎉 Enjoy!!

Glad to hear from you!

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Amore55 in reply to kdali

kdali Thank you for writing, I know how busy your life must be. Give V a love from me. I am grateful Jonnie is safe now and getting wonderful care. She is quite heavily medicated at this point, but we have had some marvelous talks about life and death over the past few weeks. Everyone else was afraid to talk to her about dying, but I knew she needed to talk about it, and I am so grateful I had those conversations with her. She is not afraid to die, and for this I am grateful. My eyes are flooding with tears at the thought of losing my dearest friend. But it is the cycle of life and death. Thanks for letting me share. I love you. Kelly xx

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kdali in reply to Amore55

Aww, that’s wonderful! It’s so huge that you can talk to her about it. It’s a beautiful thing to witness someone’s peaceful passing. I’ve been there holding hands and waiting for the next nap to be over so we can talk more, and it’s so so hard, but I’ve been grateful for each last second. Your strength is massive, Kelly! I love you too! 🤗💐

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kdali it’s so strange, people keep using that phrase to me, that my strength is so huge. I feel so inept and weak. I am so sad to lose her and I know that is so selfish when she is suffering so badly, but after I lost my mom and dad 18 days apart two years ago, she became even more special to me. But thank you for your kindness. Have a good evening. Love, Kelly xx

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kdali in reply to Amore55

They are right! I know you do, that’s why I pointed it out. Feeling guilty for wanting her to stay doesn’t make you weak, it just means you are human. You’re welcome 🤗

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greaterexp

Kelly, you are a marvel. Knowing that you have suffered so much pain yourself, yet still show such tender love for this woman is a testament to your character. I’m so sorry for what she has suffered, both as a result of that disease, but worse yet from her family. Thank God you have been looking out for her.

The Ozarks would be a lovely place to start fresh. I lived in that area for about a year long ago and loved the beauty and the people there. You will be a beautiful addition.

You remain in my prayers for God’s comfort, strength, and direction.

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greaterexp I’m sure I have never told you, but you are one of my very favorite, special friends here on the forum. Everyone is special, but I have always felt close to you. Thank you for that! But I must clarify, I am NOT a marvel. I am simply a woman who dearly loves deeply those in her life. This has been such a painful few months, but I have pushed through it all. I am grateful to everyone here for the strength that has been given.

I am so happy to hear your comments about the Ozarks! I am simply thrilled to be spending the holidays there. I am volunteering on Christmas Day to serve dinners to homeless persons, since I won’t be with family. My ex-husband and I did that a few times and it is a wonderful experience. It will only be for 2-3 hours, but it will feed my soul. I hope you are well. I will stay in touch. Remember...I love you! Kelly xx

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greaterexp in reply to Amore55

Thank you for your sweet and kind words. I love you, too. Sometimes that seems a little empty when stated online, but then again, I met my marvelous husband online, and that is how I first began to love him. We can create meaningful relationships through the written word, and your words are powerful and filled with the love that spills out of you.

I hope you are blessed as much as you will bless others in serving on Christmas Day.

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Morllyn

I am so sorry to hear about your friend. 😢

Maybe that fresh start is just what you need! 👍🤗

Glad to hear from you!

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stepsforNeeC

Hi my friend, so sorry to hear about your friend (sending up praying) she is lucky to have you in her life. Please take care of you God always gives us clarity in decision making and I know you'll do what is best!

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FearlessMsMimi

Kelly, I’m so sorry to hear your news. Life can really turn corners, bend, and curve to make us stronger. You sound as if you know what needs to be done, you got this my friend. Starting new always helps clear the air and hopefully bring new meaning to life. ❤️❤️❤️

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DIsneyQueen

Jelly, I just joined this form, but it is obviythat you are a gift from God to your friend Jonnie. I will add you both to my prayers🙏🙏. Branson is beautiful and I hope you love it. God Bless you and best of luck I everything

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Texandyroe

Welcome back! You were missed. So very sorry to hear about your friend, but what a blessing you are to her to be there in her final days and to protect her from her daughter. I think your proposed move to Branson is wonderful. it is a beautiful, idyllic place and perfect for one to get away from it all...if you can avoid the tourists. Please post pictures from your bnb once you get settled. Blessings.

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Amore55 in reply to Texandyroe

Texandyroe thank you for your sweet comment. I keep hearing how lovely the Ozarks are. I am excited! Hope you are well. Love, Kelly xx

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TracyBelle

I am so sorry to learn about your dear friend, life really can be cruel. Hopefully, it reminds us that we are not fatal. Please let me know if I can help out in a cyber way. You have probably gotten tons of great responses (I didn’t take time to read them before I replied).

My husband and I are both from Arkansas originally. Long before we ever dated he sold timeshare condominiums in Branson. (Just across the Arkansas state line.) Branson is known as the clean Las Vegas, because they have TONS of “clean family entertainment”, including Live Stage Shows and Lighted Signs down the Strip. My son went there with my mother in law and his GG when he was little and they love it there. The scenery in the Ozark Mountains is breathtaking in places. Lake Table Rock is huge and very, very deep. The water is clear and blue. What state are you relocating from?

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Amore55 in reply to TracyBelle

TracyBelle thank so much for your kind words. How did you guess that the Airbnb I am staying in for a month is at Lake Table Rock! I am really looking forward to this time away and to decide if I want to move there permanently from Salt Lake City. Love, Kelly xx

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