I've had pure o ocd for 45 years .almost.every theme but mainly harm OCD, although I should know by now they are only thoughts I still get so distressed and upset because they centre around the people I love and adore .
My problem is that since reading an OCD book by a well know therapist ....they recommended bringing thoughts up on purpose when you are with the person/ trigger they revolve around....but I get so anxious when I do this as I am desperately hoping it will make me realise they are just thoughts ....but I just feel worse when I can't get the feeling I hope for. something make my mind go blank and numb. I just cant stop doing this The book did help me in lots of ways but not sure if this is ERP as it doesn't seem to be working for me can someone . can someone please tell me where I am going wrong ?