I had written this a few days ago. And many kind people replied me it was a relief for a few days. I am religious so asked God about signs. Now every time I think I am going to be punished the phone bell rings as an answer to my thoughts. Has anybody been through this please help me. Below is my intrusive thought
"A couple of days ago it started with blasphemous thoughts about god. I didn't want to think them. Then came thoughts about a mythological character who was raped. I started having thoughts like what happened to her was right. I thought if I think so I will have to go through some torture. I then came across junko furuta case. I started having thoughts that what happened to her was right for apparently no reason. I explained myself that if I think so same would happen to me ( It has happened earlier that something I thought came true.). I started thinking maybe I am already punished. Next day I had a very angry intense thought. That if it happens to me what happened to her was right. The thought still feels real. I do not want to think that way. I am scared something same would happen to me. It's been 4 months I have this thought every day. I sometimes think maybe subconsciously I think this way. How can I confirm that I do not think this way?"