Without wanting to overshare, I got my period on Monday. As is often the case, the pain woke me up in the middle of the night so I took some painkillers and then lay there unable to sleep until they kicked in. As I was lying there, it struck me that having a period now feels so cruel. I've always had painful and difficult ones but they were always a means to an end so I tolerated them. Now they're just a reminder a) that I'm not pregnant and b) I never will be.
It's not often that I feel angry about my situation, usually it just gets me down. This made me angry though because it feels so cruel to have a period for no apparent reason. Why not just have it all cut out and put an end to them? I spend the week before vacillating between having the rage and wanting to cry, while feeling bloated like a whale and then suffer pain, sleepless nights and exhaustion the week itself. So I get to feel like myself (whatever that is at the moment) for just half the month. Great.
I sit opposite a lady at work who is going through the change. That doesn't sound like it's much more fun.
Can you tell that I'm feeling particularly sorry for myself at the moment....