I lost a member of my family recently and it has only just made me realise how much I am struggling with guilt and anxiety. I feel constantly guilty about everything and I can't make decisions on my own at the moment. People keep telling me that it might just be grief, but this past week I have realised that I have had these symptoms for years- but that they have just become too much to handle right now. I keep having suicidal thoughts (I'm convinced that I would never go through with it, but these thoughts keep recurring) and I just feel that putting an end to something is the only way to cope. I have been prescribed time off from work (a new job that I love) but I am obsessing over feelings of guilt for taking of so much time. I seem to be going around in circles and feel that there is nothing I can do- just kind of hopeless! Can anyone sympathise or see any sense in any of that??????