Hello, I am new here.
I am suffering from Depression and anxiety for several years now. I am on medications and it helped to survive but not to live normal happy life. I am working full time in IT industry, this job require mental power and clarity, I am struggling, disappointed with myself, yet can't control anything.
Recently I started feeling confused, lost, extremely tired and overwhelmed with tasks at work and home, I have two kids and house to take care of. I forgetting things, words, and feel stupid, It seems I can't manage anything, I feel like failure in all areas. All I dream about is to hide somewhere far away from everything. I imagine how nice it would be to be on a quite beach, close the eyes and to float to place where nothing ever bothers me anymore.
Feeling lost and hoping to find exit