Mental health support

[kanikarawat102]

Waking up in the morning and feeling tired. Getting up with the thoughts of dying. I am not suicidal but my thoughts are and I don't have a clue on how to stop them. It has always been this way, back and forth. At one point I'm smiling and laughing and I'm genuinely happy and then suddenly it all comes crashing down and I feel it crumbling. Over and over, like a cycle. Like it is all meant to build up just to fall. Like a game of jango, I carefully take each step and place my faith in it only to realise the base isn't too strong to carry the weight, I'm too weak to keep on going. By the time I realise, it's a downhill and I am a rollercoaster that is meant to crash. I remember my responsibilities and my duties and I yearn to fulfill them. But I am my own enemy. I am struck with another bolt of self imposed pressure and unhealthy behavior. I want to change, break free. But I no longer know how...

[LulaBeth]

Sounds like what I go through.not bipolar because the cycle is much more frequent

I am not a Dr. but it sounds very similar to my OCD and adrenal issue.

I am being treated for OCD and I take over the counter L Thianene for the help. And it does!

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Hey! I'm really sorry what you' ve been went from. I've been there once. From my experience you'll find a way out own but just don't give up. I you need help I can assist.