First for some background, I'm already on three different medications. Zoloft, Wellbutrin XL, and Lamictal.
I've never been good at taking meds, when I was a kid it was drilled into my brain that meds are bad unless you have no other choice. But don't take them if you don't have to kinda thing. Just standard farm logic I guess haha. Super glue instead of bandages logic, etc.
Well I went to the doctors (which isn't bad enough because 'if you have to go to the doctors office during Corona something is wrong'). I thought I had a cyst on the bottom of my foot. But the specialist says its Plantar Fibroma. Basically that's the tendon on the bottom of your foot having an inflared area (that's my understanding at least). So here's my problem.....
I have to ice my foot 3 times a day, which isn't the issue. The issue is I have to take, of course, more pills. But, the first day meds, today, you have to take 6. Then 5 tomorrow, 4 the next day, one less every day until they're gone.
I tried to overdose on pills when I was younger. That, plus cutting sent me to the hospital for the first time. Every time I look at this package of pills, I feel nauseous. I feel like I can't even take my normal 3 pills today. I just feel like crying today, and hurting myself. I just feel....horrible. It doesn't help I can't go anywhere public since Corona is still locking everyone away. I'm honestly kind of scared. My partner comes home around 7:30PM.
Does anyone have some advice how I can calm down and take my meds?
Thank you, stay safe everyone.