Counting the days: I've reached a point... - Mental Health Sup...

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Counting the days

jasonbourne
jasonbourne
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I've reached a point in my life where I really struggle to keep going. The thoughts in my mind just drive me crazy sometimes and I wish I could just numb my brain. I'm a religious person and have a strong belief in God but can't reconcile why my life has ended up the way it has. The only conclusion I can come to is that somehow I've fallen out of favour with God and now I'm on my own. I have a very loving family and they mean the world to me and I feel I've let them down. The sad thing is I so wished I could have been a better man for them but I just couldn't be the husband and father they deserved and that drives me crazy. I don't want to end my life but really feel like I'm just going through the motions. I honestly don't look forward to anything in life. I do enjoy doing stuff but it's very temporary and given the choice of living life and never having existed, I'd choose never having existed without a doubt. I guess I've always had a depressive dark side but I'd say I'm now suffering from actual depression in the last 3 years or so. I don't really know why I signed up here. Not really sure what I expect to get from here and whether I'll even come back here but it's been 'fun' to just write these things down so I guess that's a good thing.

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Daz2310

Stay strong it can only get better my brother

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indervir

God and goodness will guide you, stay positive = positive inspirational thoughts on facebook and pinterest has positive thoughts, determination, courage and such like on it

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Mazda2

Believe in yourself, your a better man than you think. It's a blip in your life that your going through, and as, you say you have a wonderful family. Open up to them and tell them how, your feeling and I'm sure you will get all the support and love you need. Good luck

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flora8

Hello, Im so sorry to read about how low you feel. Have you spoken with your GP about this? Or a family member. You say that you wished you could have been a better man for them but I am certian your family would not agree with you and love you very much. They would want to know you are struggling and help you. I urge you to talk to them. Your GP can discuss antidepressants with you which can help your mood and give you some motivation to find things you enjoy in life and look forward to the future. It is great that you have strong faith - I do too ad it has helped me through difficult times in my life. Three years is a long time to be feeling depressed and I urge you to see your GP. I hope to hear from you. Take care xo

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