I’m driving myself mad

[Kevtrev]

Long story short I lost my job due to long term sickness but work said when I’m ready they will get me back but then I started experiencing things first started the heart palpitations and the worry of what if and things that haven’t even happened yet will I get my old job back will they keep there word will I be able to fit in my gym and running when I go back to work and I’m thinking because I’ve not kept regular contact will they still want me as my old Forman has been texting to see how my recovery is going but as nice as that is it was putting some pressure on me so I said it’s coming on good but I’m not ready and said to text him when I’m ready but still kept texting to see how I’m going and I replied I will let you know when I’ve seen the doctor all this hasn’t helped me but since me texting that he has left me be as I’ve since been having more heart palpitations and now I’m on anxiety medication and antidepressants plus I’ve had an ecg and bloods done because I’ve been getting up and being light headed and nearly passed out but the wife caught me so the doctor requested ecg and bloods done I’m going to go back on Monday as she wanted to see me 3 weeks after because she gave me Sertraline 50mg tablets and they don’t seem to be doing the job she did say we start you on a low dose but most people need stronger so she did say the next dose is 100mg so when I see her I will find out what my results are and she said hopefully it’s the medication sending you dizzy and light headed the Propranolol 80mg modified-release capsules might be doing it so we will see I’ve just been getting up slowly and forget sometimes and it catches me out and she did lower my Amitriptyline 25mg tablets to 10mg because she put me on Sertraline 50mg. My wife has been very supportive and the running does help but doesn’t stop me thinking only when I’m running I stop thinking or exercising or walking the rest of the time I’m driving myself mad my wife try’s and talk sense to me and said the boss has promised you a job back and I’ve got to trust them and if they don’t it’s there loss but they won’t do that because everyone loves you there even my manager has said I need you back when you’re ready I know this and still worry if they are going to put me in the same department as that’s what I want and not something that I don’t want because I know I can do my old job my strength is coming I just need to sort my mental health out before I do it’s been a year since I had the op and I really hope all this will end soon

[AlMorr]

Sorry about you losing your job Kev, also, I am a little worried about your heart palpitations, you will just have to take things easy for the moment, however, I note that there is a note of optimisim in your post, you like to be cheered up, well I hope you will be cheered up about my run this morning.

As I have been doing 1 Kilometre a week more every Wednesday, today was

The turn to run 9k, however, the audio on Mapmyrun was playing up a little, giving me split times at different intervals, I waited and waited for the 9k split to come, it never did, so I took my phone out of my pocket at looked at the times, my goodness it said 9.6k and the time was around 78 minutes, so I just carried on until the reading, not the audio said 10k, stopped there and then, wow, I ran that 10k a week earlier than planned. Split time at 10k 73.03 although the number in bold is 73.08.

I now will go and post it on the C25K site and the Bridge 210K site as well.

I hope that report of me running a 10k has cheered you up a little. 😊 🏃

[Kevtrev in reply to AlMorr]

Don’t worry about the heart palpitations Alan it’s my anxiety that’s part of it and at the moment I find coffee doesn’t help. And well done you on your running 😉

[AlMorr in reply to Kevtrev]

Thanks Kev

[Kevtrev in reply to AlMorr]

You’re welcome mate 😉👍

[Liz0]

Propranolol actually made my palpitations and anxiety worse. I hope you feel better soon. I am just starting sertraline in a desperate hope xx

[Kevtrev in reply to Liz0]

Thank you I’m just so tried of being like this I never thought it would happen to me but it has. I hope you too feel better soon too xx

[Hidden]

Best to take your time until medicine has affect on you, good and then your concentration will be at what the job requires.

[Kevtrev in reply to Hidden]

Very true thank you for that 😉

[Silentrider60]

Hi driving your self mad,

I know stress all to well and dwelling on things before they happen will make your stress worse. Take things one task at a time and do the things that relaxes you and don't think a lot about things. The most important thing to take care of you first then you can take care your issues one thing at a time to work this through. And if your work doesn't back you up then maybe you can find another job thatight be better in pay and good benefits. And learn to manage your stress better you have other health issues like stroke, heart attack, or worse. Keep your off your stress issues and learn to relax. Life is short and you can find a lot of things on your computer or cell to get on the internet and find sites that can help your stress, and work on that. Remember there are always a will and a way to get the things like your stress managed and your job, and I support people on their stress levels. Good luck to you and praise God your wife is your big supporter. Let me know how things work out for you. Janet

[Kevtrev in reply to Silentrider60]

Thank you so so much that totally makes sense and makes me feel more positive I appreciate your kind words thank you 🙏😉x

[Kevtrev in reply to Silentrider60]

Hi Janet I’ve seen my doctor today after 3 and a half weeks later my test results were all ok so it’s down to my anxiety and depression I’ve been put on Sertraline 100mg tablets stronger ones but I’m listening to my body and she wants to see me in 4 weeks and see how I’m getting on with the stronger dose and if they work fine if not I might have to go up to 150mg but fingers crossed they will work for me and I’m not trying to get back to work like this I want to be feeling better before I do as they don’t want me to be going to doctor appointments when I get back which is understandable as I want to be ok in my head you know we’re I’m coming from as it will be bad enough going back to work so I need to be ok mentally and thank you so so much for your kind words all them weeks ago so I thought I would let you know how I’m getting on

Kevin 👍😉

[Silentrider60]

Hey driving yourself mad,

Your very welcome, you need the up lifting words to help you out. I feel better that my words and stuff you needed to know and I pray that God will help you with your stress and job or jobs when your body is ready to work again. God be with you and family. Janet

[Kevtrev in reply to Silentrider60]

Thank you Janet you’re so kind bless you x

[Silentrider60 in reply to Kevtrev]

Hope things are going better for you and it's not easy but with time and God in your corner things will get better with time. You have my support. It took time for me just looking for a good counselor for my PTSD from abuse from a parent. God is with us all and this site has some warm hearted people supporting each other that is a good thing. Take one day at a time and hopefully we can heal our problems. Janet

[Kevtrev in reply to Silentrider60]

Thank you Janet yes at the moment I’m doing ok my tablets seem to be helping me much better than the 50mg now I’m on 100mg so I’m taking day to day and thank you for your kind words 😉

[Kevtrev in reply to Silentrider60]

Hi Janet I’ve had a bit of a set back my dad has been talking to my old boss and he said they are hoping I would be back soon but with my dad going on about it he wanted me to explain what the problem was as I said I don’t want to talk about it my dad is old school and doesn’t believe in depression even though he has had it himself which if he knew how I felt he wouldn’t of pushed me so he hasn’t had it my dad basically pressured me to go to his house Saturday to talk about it I didn’t want to I’ve explained it on the phone before but that wasn’t good enough.

So on the way to my mum and dads I cried and when I was there to and I’ve had an awful week so I seen my doctor and she has put me on 150mg sertaline and I’m also going for some counciling I’m hoping the tablets kick in soon but my dad has caused my set back so I’m back to the doctors in 4 weeks time so the way things are going my wife wants me to go back to work in the new year.

As I do want to get better and I will I just need time and only then I will get back to work