I seem to have a particular problem with upcoming events. I’m not really sure where this has come from but I think I have been battling this for the past couple of years but have only just been able to pinpoint it as a trigger.
The problem starts when I know something is approaching, If I know that tomorrow I will need to go and meet my friend for whatever reason it will be all I can think about today. I don't necessarily dread it but I will count down the hours until it happens and then it will feel as if the thought of this event is crushing me. I then start to think of ways to cancel it or get it over quicker then it should be.
I understand that this sounds coo coo bananas and I have tried to rationalise this all in my head but I just can’t seem to break this thought pattern.
Going to work is the worst. I am looking for a new job so I know a part of it is me being unhappy with where I am currently but if I am at work the next day it presses on me the day before and it makes me feel as if everything I am doing today is a waste of time and that I have not made the most of the hours I have before I go to work (no matter what I do! I could cure the world of all illness and signal handedly save the whales but it would still be a waste is my mind.)
Closing shifts are harder than normal shifts because I go in mid-day so have all morning to count down what feels like every single minute.
Am I alone here? Does anyone else experience this or anything similar?
My main questions are Is there anything I can do about this? Any methods or techniques I can try to make tomorrow not sit on my chest? How do you control your own mind?
Any advice or stories are welcome.