So, I’ve got a good life. Married, kids, good job, new house and lots of friends. Yeah, I’ve had some trauma in my past and my marriage has been rocky at times, but everyone goes through that. For a long time, I’ve just wanted to die. My cousin killed him self 20 years ago and I swore never to hurt myself because I saw what it did to the family, so self harm is never a risk. I just want to die. I often pray for death. I take extra risks, hope for cancer and fatal health problems and just overall don’t want to be alive anymore. How do I get my mind to stop thinking this way? I know how amazing my life is but I still just want it all to end. I just feel like everyone else would be better off without me. I’m well insured so my passing would allow my family to be set financially.
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