living with the first steps to mental wellness

[morkandmindy]

It doesn't matter if no one reads this, butI have finally taken the first 2 steps to my mental well being. I have talked to my pc and have made an appointment with a psychiatrist. I am hoping this will help us, me and my boys, deal with life in a calmer way. I am very confused at the moment, I'm always angry but I have no idea why. There is very rarely a reason for the anger I feel. other time I feel as if other people try to upset me on purpose, just to get me to leave the gathering. I feel as if people ignore my calls, or invent reasons they can't talk. I feel like i'm crazy sometimes, like when I should be mad and im calm as a lake on a clear day, or when i'm just sitting around watching tv and I start arguing with the news. I fell as though I have no control or warning concerning my moods. I really do feel like the character mork from mork and mindy. so very misunderstood, I have no friends, my family has written me off. I haven't talked to my sisters in 2 years. my dad never call me, he goes thru roll call when I call him. I find myself hiding in my room so I don't holler at people. I cry for no reason. and to top it all off I think im pregnant witth another child to screw up with. I just don't no what to do at this time while I wait to be seen. so I'll just live my life as best as possible. meaning laughing, cry, hollering and trying to remember to breath deeply.

[sweetiepye]

Hello, It matters very much indeed that you have taken the first steps toward wellness. You are giving yourself a chance at a better more enjoyable life and your children also. If you are pregnant you will be a different person and Mother to this one. Your older children can be a big help to you and that will make them feel so loved and needed. This could be such an exciting time for you. I hope you will take good care of yourself and stay in touch with us so we can support your efforts. I know those feelings you are having, I've had them also. The likelihood is those thoughts are yours alone and your family is probably wondering why you are so hostile. It might be time for a good open talk if you're feeling up to it. start with the person you feel closest to and see how it goes. Pam

[morkandmindy in reply to sweetiepye]

they are at a loss of how to help. they just call me a snowflake for not being able to cope on my own, without profession help. my husband wants to help me, just at a loss. my dad answered his phone and set it down, I was so hurt by this I just don't want to be hurt, or hurt anyone else's feelings, so I'm not calling again. I don't always say things the way I want. but if I think about it and act like im writing a paper, I seem to make sense, but then I don't want to give it to them. partly because they have called me a snowflake many times. How do I help my husband deal with an unknown problem that I have been trying, unsuccessfully to cope with for 30 or so years?

[fauxartist]

Your doing the first steps as you say to get a handle on your anger, that is really good for you to find out what's going on. Anger often comes when our personal boundaries have been crossed at some time in our lives and we felt powerless. When these issues go un-resolved we bottle them up and it can come out in inappropriate ways. There are other reasons for anger of course....like depression is chemical, as is bi-polar, etc. Many people have very thin skin as is said, I do...and our feelings are hurt easy, and we can perceive a threat possibly when there really isn't one if we stop and really look at a situation. And even if someone was being a jerk...we can learn to pick our battles and not react. So working on solutions and coping methods....sorting all this out will hopefully bring you some relief. Your not crazy....you just need some answers so you can feel better and know how to deal with your anger.