hi, so sorry I'm about to you know go on a little talk about myself and all but I seriously dont know what to do and its eating me up.
so ive struggled with my life for a long time the last two years have been really hard on me, I have attempted suicide three times in the last 8 months obviously failing, I was stopped each time by my parents, it never got to a point where I needed hospitalisation.
at this point in time I cant sleep I cant eat and if I leave my room an argument starts, this morning I went to the doctors to finally get something done about my depression and anxiety with a friend who insisted I go.
anyway, I went to the doctors had a real nice doctor too but my anxiety level was so high I couldn't answer his questions couldn't even look at my doctor, my friend had to explain the situation to him and I honestly nearly had a panic attack. I dont know why but it absolutely terrified me.
how am I supposed to get the help I need and explain to him what he needs to know if the very idea of being in the same room with a stranger terrifies me that much? what do I do?