Worse than before

[emparedados]

I'm on Sertraline, I'm past the first two months and the random symptoms you get.

Only thing is I still feel suicidal. not all the time mind, some times I feel great, but now I have more rage and despair than I do anxiety.

I worry less and spiral less but I keep lashing out. I'm turning into a horrible person. I reached out for therapy but I'm too scared to go.

I've gone into suicide planning and nearly gone through with. I've only stopped because I know my partner would be crushed. I cant bare the thought of hurting her like that. I just feel so helpless.

I mean great things are happening, we bought a house, a dog, got engaged, I got a promotion ffs! No matter what tho I'm not the guy I used to be. I was depressed, sure, but I was funny and made my partner happy. Now I just snap at her and act like a zombie - its like that movie 'click' where he just fast forwards parts of his life.

IDK everything just feels wrong. Like I'm about to be ill - that 'icky' feeling you get. i've had that for weeks!!!

----- Has anyone else on this medication felt like this?

And yea I know I need to arrange therapy and talk to my GP and no I'm not in imminent risk of suicide. I Just want to know if people feel the same weight I do each day.

[MAS_Nurse]

Hello emparedados

Thank you for your message. This is so positive to share this with us, things can't be easy for you.

Yes you do need to go back to the doctor and talk as you may need your medication reviewing and the doctor might be able to help with some of the things you are struggling with.

If you could talk things through with a trusted person, this might help too.

Our members a very supportive, so may have more help to offer you.

MIND might also be able to offer more support at mind.org

The topics and pinned posts might also have more information for you.

Do get back to us and tell us how things are going for you

Take care and best wishes

[chrisoct]

Yes mate I’m going through the same thing. I’m on a higher dose now and I’ve settled down. Still no mojo some anger and frustration at time always irrational and it soon goes. Try to remember you are like me trying to cope with a very overwhelming condition. Stick with it or ask your go to try something else.

Chris

[emparedados in reply to chrisoct]

Hey bud, I doubled my dosage. I feel much better, the anger seems to be under control and my mood is much better - I feel like its still there tho - just a little deeper than before. Headaches are a bitch