I am happily married.My husband family is amazing but i feel my mother in law all are understanding caring never complaining.i have freedom i drive can socialize wear as i like dont meed to do job as well.
As mentioned overall i have basically nothing to complain.i changed country as got married in UK.
I suffered from severe financial losses in beginning but now doing very fine.
I am not concistent.If i do or start something its nice fine doable but all enthusiasm finish i dont want to clean i dont want to tidy but want things to be clean to.
I want to do it but havw no energy to do it.my thoughts are overloading.
I am lazy...angry one...procrastinating all stuff...hard to meet boundries and deadlines....cant ignore and make loved ones sad through anger and words.
I am so confuse.
I need a way out of this lazy worthless bubble.where i have so ideas and energy but my body doesnt support or support for short period.
How can i be consitent and organized why i cant do it when i really want to.
Why i am so happy when my house is clean and angry when messy.
Why cant i ignore or why cant i do it.
Want to study or do job but what suitable for me cant find direction.
I like advise take it try to follow but not dependable.
I want freedom from this
U can change life guide me i will pray for u always.
I am so tiredof myself