Back to my regular routine(trying)

[Moka21]

Trying my best right now to follow my routine before i get depression. Tryna do some chores while listening to some music. Although i feel kinda tired and still depressed but I'm doing my best to get myself out of depression. Really hope the cheerful and carefree old me make a comeback soon. I really want to go to meet the doctor but when i try to explain things to my mom she doesn't seem to understand and keep telling me that I'm thinking too much and that I'm too young to be depressed about life. That hurts me a lot but there's nth i can do. I'm just a 17 years old girl who is still a student. I can't afford to go to the doctor alone since it will cost some money for prescription and stuff. Sighhh~~

Really don't know how to get myself out of this. Feel so tired and fed up when no one seem to understand and they keep telling me I'm thinking too much or ask me the reason why i feel depressed. I don't even know why do i feel like this. Depressed, hopeless, lack motivation, started to loss weight and don't feel hungry. The worst thing is no matter how tired i am i can't fall asleep and when i sleep, i keep having nightmare. I'm also a very sensitive person so i avoid watching tv, news, social media etc. I used to enjoy going to school and meet friends but not anymore.

[MAS_Nurse]

Hello Moka21 and welcome to this caring supportive community. Anyone can become depressed, there is no age limit so please don't beat yourself over this. I am sure that shortly some of our other young members will reply to you and reassure you its ok to feel down sometimes. I am so sorry you feel unsupported but take one day at a time, try to find something you like to do, like music or a good film, book and concentrate on that for a time. Then reward yourself with a short walk or something you like to do. Is there someone else you can talk to who won't judge you but just listen? Also we do have 'pinned posts' that can be helpful too.

What do some of our members think, is there anyone who could help please with suggestions for Moka?

[Moka21 in reply to MAS_Nurse]

Hi Mas nurse, I'm trying my best to explain thing to my mom and if i don't get better by next week I'll go to meet psychologist.

[sophgirl]

Hugs Moki,

I'm so proud of you! Everything you described is what I am feeling! Clinical depression has real physical symotoms. Lots of people don't understand this. I pray that your mom will take you to see a psychologist who can let her know that this is a real disease. Hugs!

[Moka21 in reply to sophgirl]

Thank u sophgirl, i also hope everything work out for u too. Hug*

[Hidden]

Hi, you are not alone in this! I had lost all of my motivation for school and really suffered-I used to be a straight A student so nobody was expecting it. Luckily I did pass though. Have you tried medicine to help you sleep better at night? And how have you approached this with your mom? I didn't get help until I completely broke apart and was bawling my eyes out, then I was brought to the doctor. I hope your mom will understand and try to help! The tiredness could be a lack of a nutrient (mine was Vitamin D) and the only way to tell is by blood test. How long have you been feeling like this? Maybe if you tell your mom that you are not feeling any better and that you are concerned about yourself, she will help. Best of luck and I hope your mom/friends will try to understand!

[Moka21 in reply to Hidden]

I have been using some medicine to help me sleep and my mom still doesn't seem to understand. After this week if i still don't get any better I'll go to see the doctor and try to persuade my mom.

[sophgirl]

I will be praying that you are able to get the help u need, dear moka 😇😇