Need help dunno what it is with me >-<

[cassidy0703]

ok so... Basically I have these times where I feel like I'm not good enough for anyone and where I feel like I cant talk to people and when this happens I kinda go into this hibernation mode where I go college don't speak all day and sit on my phone with my earphones and listen to music and don't do anything at all I'm a sporty kid I play football/soccer I just find my self slipping away ive been like this so many times before to the point where I cut my self. I dunno why but when this happened my mum only took notice when she saw the scars on my wrist ^_^ I've never thought about suicide as I thought I would be some sort of use to someone but I've waited 5 years and I'm getting tired of waiting to be honest. My sister was like me very down all the time and scars on the wrist we have a good relationship but she lives away and my other sister doesn't really care when I was young my dad was very abusive to my family and hit us all and locked us in garages and sheds when he was drunk. I never drink or smoke or do drugs because I have a bad heart and plan on TRYING to live a long life but with all the college stress and anxiety and sadness around me its kinda hard to see the long life I was bullied in school and didn't really attend that much and failed all my exams and now in college I'm round people twice as worse who make me feel like I cant even speak any advise people??? ^_^ >_<

[blackcat64013]

Hi Cassidy0703,

Thank you for sharing what you life is until now.

As a college student, help is available through the college. You are eligible to make use of the student assistance program frequently referred to as a SAP.

I encourage you to make the call or walk into the office for that first contact. The SAP is really a great support option for you.

What Is SAP?

The SAP is there to help you and your immediate family members deal with concerns in your life — by finding solutions.

The SAP is designed to assist students, families and schools to manage the impact that a wide variety of personal and family problems can have on student behavior and achievement.

Many issues can negatively impact a student including those related to family conflict, emotional or mental health problems, limited parenting skills, substance abuse, bullying and other peer conflict.

Services provided include telephone consultation, in-person sessions and referrals to community resources, if needed.

The SAP is available to you 24 hours a day, seven days a week and is strictly confidential.

When to Call the SAP

You can count on the SAP for guidance and support. Call the SAP for issues that interfere with your daily activities, happiness, family stability or overall wellbeing.

Topics a SAP counselor can help you with are:

•School performance

•Stress

•Confusion

•Trouble with peers

•Alcohol and other drug problems

•Eating disorders

•Problem gambling concerns

•Dating and relationship issues

•Conflict, bullying or violence

•Depression or suicidal thoughts

•Family concerns

Who will know I used the SAP?

Confidentiality is important within legal limits. No one will be given any information about your visit without your permission.

Do I have to pay to use the SAP?

No, you can use the SAP for free. You’ll receive counseling sessions and 24/7 telephone assistance at no cost to you. If additional resources are needed, the counselor works to ensure referrals are appropriate, beneficial and affordable.