Crying at my desk

[Kitten_123]

Just sat here crying at my desk - i dont know why

i had this fear that i miss my parents and i am missing out on time with them before they die

i feel awful right now

[WantToChange]

Hm, I've had feelings like that before. Death and grief are things that we all fear.

Maybe you could visit them tomorrow or sometime soon to soothe your worries and guilty feelings?

[Suzie40]

Are your parents ill? x

[DragonTears]

Hey Kitten, Deep breaths. It's OK. We all get hit by the mortality monster sometimes and panic. It is one of the great dividers and most feared thing about being alive, the fact that we will die sooner or later. I ti s an overwhelming thought, it is permanent, relentless and so scary. it is perfectly normal to feel a bit overwhelmed by it. It is utterly out of your control. I don't want to throw cliches at you, as they don't really help most times and I am sure you have already thought of all the "make the most of it now" and "live like tomorrow is your last day". Well they are good but you have to find your own way through. With people we love, the eternity is not long enough and we wish we could just be around forever. But our lives are limited and we do our best to spend them in the best way we can. Don't know if you are religious at all or atheist or anything in between, but I tend to think we all have a purpose and we can only be responsible for our own life. We owe it to our parents to be happy, healthy and responsible adults and do our best. I think fearing your parents death is normal but also a game you can't win. Nobody knows when and how it will happen. So many people have lost loved ones out of the blue and they find a way to move on. I moved away from my parents, to a different country and I feel the guilt sometimes and miss them. But I equally know that they are proud of me and want me to live an independent and brave life. They had me so that I may grow into a strong person and conquer the world. Create some great memories together. Go places and do things that are a bit crazy. You will never lose those memories. Do a scrapbook maybe, take lots o photos, write down their stories, make a video diary together. That's all you can do and that's what we are meant to do. But I feel you and hear you, it is a tough topic, death. Big Hugs Xx