Depression on and off for 15 years

[dctw146]

i have had depression on and off for 15 years. I was 16 when First diagnosed with post-natal, after i had my first child. But after years of taking different medication, having numerous counselling seshions, and being so low i even tried over dosing, i have finally settled on my current medication and thankfully it works for me.

The thing is, i think it stems from me being a child, and the fact i never recieved professional help.

When i was 8 years old, i suffered a tragic loss, my Dad. He was only 26, when he was killed with a gun he was playing with. I insisted i attended his funeral too, and my mother didnt hesitate. I had lost the one person who saw me as the apple of his eye, attended a big gangland funeral and also, the night before the funeral, my mother broke the news to me that i had a half brother and 2 half sisters and one on the way.

I believe that going through all this, was just too much for my 8 year old head to handle, but i never got offered any sort of counsdelling at all.

I am sharing my experience to tell others there is light at the end of the tunnel and there is always someone to turn to, even when you feel alone x

[DMM218 Ambassador]

Such great insight. A lot of it stems from childhood and not getting the right tools at that time to help deal with life. It's sad because it can go back generations. All of us just little kids inside wanting unconditional love and acceptance. Take care and thanks for sharing.

[dctw146 in reply to DMM218]

Yes your right, i have hit rock bottom a few times over the years, but as im now in my 30s, i understand it more. Thank you