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Struggling with depression/anxiety


I have been suffering with depression/anxiety since I was 7. I am now 49. I had a few good years in that time but not many. I feel like my life has been stolen from me, like i have been robbed of so many years due to mental illness which i think was caused by trauma in childhood. I have tried ECT, meds (still on - they help some but not completely). I am diagnosed with Treatment Resistant Depression and generalized anxiety disorder. Lately I have been having strong suicidal ideation. I am not planning to kill myself (which my therapist tells me is the time to be concerned if that happens) but I find myself thinking thoughts like death is the only way to escape the pain of my life. I have a lot of mood swings. My therapist is a big believer in learning how to live in the moment. Practicing mindfulness. He thinks that is the answer. Right now i just feel very alone with all this and want to connect with this community if possible.

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Hi Mrykaibi and can totally relate to how you feel as im sure alot of other members here can too so please dont feel alone. I suffer from constant anxiety attacks and also depression and feel like there is no other way than death but please be reassured that this isnt the answer. Take one day at a time instead of trying to look to tomorrow which I guess is what your therapist is trying to explain. Have you tried any of the self-hypnosis videos/audios on youtube with headphones? I find these a great help and there are loads you can choose from. Do you have any hobbies that you could get into if you dont feel like socialising with friends? Do you like to get creative with hands like clay as this can be therapeutic too ? I guess im trying to say to keep active and distracted which I know is difficult. I also cannot take medicine and it is difficult but as we take each day at a time hopefully the fog will lift even if its for a short time and feel a bit better. Keep talking to us here and hope you start to feel better soon.

Bill2020 in reply to flimsymimsy

thanks very much for your help and support

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