first and formost i have to apologize myself for my horrible English. I hope you can at least understand it a little bit.
for some months or years i have the feeling that my emotions are blocked. i don't lack them completly, they are there but it's hard to cry, even when i am alone. i would love to cry sometimes because i think that would be a relief.
Some day's if feel unhappy without any reason whatsoever. that probably feels like a contradiction but its not. its not easy to explain. Some day( however not so many) i even feel like life isn't real. thats so fucking weird.
I also lack motivation to de things. A lot of the time i am very tired( in a litteral sence) even when i just slept more than enough. i dont know if those things are linked with each other but anyway.